Same or different

There's a story site, and there are a lot of stories inside it. Somehow or rather, I find that story site's stories are always the same. Almost the same storyline, with similar or same endings. The last story is still halfway through, and somehow I wonder if the last story will also end up like the few stories before it. If it does, I'm sure it's going to be a sad and hurtful ending. Hopefully the author of the story will not make the story the same. All the more when all the stories are using the same main character.

Will keep going with the story, because I really want to know what the ending will be like.

Same or different?

Hopefully it will be different.

Please be different.

ConePizza

Firstly..

CONGRATULATIONS

to Pui Mon and family on the opening of their new shop!

Thanks for the invitation. ^^

It was a saturday

and after the visitation to the shop

I bet we did not want to go home

LOL

So guess what?

Kelvin, Ken and I

went and grab something which looks like an ice-cream but is not an ice-cream

pizza but not really conventionally a pizza

Lol

We went for ConePizza

situated in Tmn Sri Rampai

Take a look..

Yeap

I don't quite remember all the names for it

Not because it was in italian

Just that I could not remember one of them ^^

But anyways

I guess the conepizza was pretty much fine

And for sure whatever you see on the illustration is not the real thing

but yet

I think it was still considered a satisfaction^^

The fillings were bountiful

the crust was alright

and somebody said that as you eat till the end of the cone

it kinda turned to become roti canai

Lol

The price is approx RM11-RM12 per cone I guess^^

Never really flipped through all the prices in the menu

But if you're looking for something more filling

DO check out the sets section

else go for the pasta

LOL

Yea

I think this is about all I can tell you about this cone-y food

^^

Enjoy eating your screen!

^^

To my Lappy

Dearest laptop,

Without you, my life feels a little empty. How's life staying at the workshop?

Do you know you hold everything which is very important to me with you? Do you know you hold all my memories in you? Do you know you are the one that holds everything that I need?

Now, without you, all that are important to me are no longer here with me, all my memories you have taken along with you, and all that I need you cannot provide for me any longer.

I need all my documents for my assignments and all the notes I put inside your hardisk, I want all the pictures which are all the memories I have, and I need all the softwares installed in you to finish my assignment and do my work. You took everything with you, and you never tell me when you will be coming back.

I know I have hit you, because the fan in you was not spinning. I had to hit you so that you can stay with me. That was my only way.

Please come back soon, lappy. I miss you very much, I need you very much too. Please get well soon and come back to me. Come back with a new fan so that I don't need to hit you anymore. I will take very good care of you. I promise.

Love,
Your owner

How to renovate?

I am still wondering how to renovate my blog layout and stuff. Always seeing the same things are a little boring.

If only I could hire someone without the need to pay.. But OH COME ON!! It's called HIRING! How to HIRE without money?

Well... Not really free nowadays to do renovation also...

Let's wait for a day I can sit down and figure out how to renovate...

Design.. Design.. Design...

Jean

I was looking at the sidebars of my blog, and I didn't really paid any attention to this column all the while, but today I stopped at it and took another read at it - What JEAN really means.

Let's see how true it is..

You are fair, honest, and logical. 

Fair - Maybe yes, maybe not. But most of the time, I play the fair game.

Honest - I am honest when I need to be, but if it takes a lie to really save my own butt, honesty is out of the context. 

Logical - Logical probably in the sense that I do not want to do things which I find it a waste of my time and near to impossible to do.  

You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

Natural leader - Honestly, I do not have a single clue whether this is true or not, because I do not know what attributes a natural leader will need to have. 

People respect you - It depends, I suppose. Some respect, some don't. It's just whether the majority is on the 'yes' or on the 'no'.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

Never give up - I always have thoughts to give up, but at the end of the day, I do always make a turn around and continue on with it. Uncertainties and emotional surges. Oh well..

Will succeed - I suppose everybody in this world wants to succeed. I won't want to deny this.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. 

Rational to see every part of a problem - Well, I think it takes other people to tell me about this? Because I have not really evaluated myself on this as yet.  

You are great at giving other people advice.

Great at giving advice - I think it takes the feedback from people who have taken my advice before.  

You are friendly, charming, and warm.

Friendly - I suppose I am when I am in the right situation and where the ice can be broken.

Charming - I have no comments on this. 

Warm - I am a warm-hearted person, but sometimes I get driven cold. 

You get along with almost everyone.

Get along with almost everyone - Maybe yes in the beginning, but it takes a lot of effort to stay this way at the end of the day.
You work hard not to rock the boat.

Work hard not to rock the boat - Probably everybody also does this, just that some succeed and some don't. Well, I'm one of the don'ts. 

Your easy going attitude brings people together.

Easy going - I am not sure if I am easy going, maybe somebody can tell me. Personally, I don't think so.

Brings people together - I have never seen myself doing this before.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. 

Flaky - Probably yes.

Irresponsible - Yea... I do have irresponsible times, and sometimes major.  

But for the important things, you pull it together.

Important things, pull it together - Maybe somebody can tell me about this too.  

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

Best at everything - I won't say everything, and I won't say the best either. 

Strive for perfection - Oh well.. I guess I have to agree 85% with this. Unless I really do not bother anymore.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

Confident - Talk about the outward look, but inwardly, it's probably only about 50% of what you see on the outside.
Authoritative - I guess I am sometimes a control freak, dictatorial. Cutting down on it. 

Aggressive - Truly aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

Type A - I do not understand the 'Type A personality'. 

You are very intuitive and wise. 

Intuitive - Intuitions cannot be trusted. 

Wise - Not very, but there is a certain level of it.  

You understand the world better than most people.

Understand the world - Through experiences, I suppose anybody will also know the world better than anybody else.
You also have a very active imagination.

Active imagination - I honestly cannot deny this. And though imaginations are good, they often get in the way of many things.  

You often get carried away with your thoughts.

Carried away with thoughts - For sure... Undeniable. 
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy.

Paranoia - Quite paranoid at times I suppose.

Jealousy - True enough.

You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

Overboard in interpreting signals - Sometimes I do intend to do so. 

Well, nobody is perfect in any way.
I just have to be happy the way I am, and whatever that I can change, then I will try my best, isn't it?
And say... Now that I look through that list, no wonder it's so difficult for me to find Mr Right.
Haha...
Well.. Guess it was pretty accurate.
Apparently.. =)

1 pair of footprints, or 2?

I wonder when I walk on sand, will I see 1 pair of footprints or 2?
Or 1 pair of footprints deeply sunk into the sand?

1 pair -  I am walking alone
2 pairs - somebody is walking with me
1 pair, deeply sunk into the sand - somebody is carrying me to walk across my journey

Sometimes I ponder upon it.. And I wish I see only one pair of footprints, deeply sunk into the sand, because then I know somebody is carrying me to walk my journeys of life. That I don't have to rely on my own strength, and I have somebody to rely upon.

I am still searching. Still looking forward to seeing that set of footprints.

Rainbow in Class

Don't ask me...

But a rainbow appeared in class...

Which is all seven of us!!

Red..

Orange..

Yellow..

Green..

Blue..

Indigo..

Purple..

Hahaha...

It was not planned..

It just happened..

With a rainbow..

Guess even during the rain..

There will better days..

Have fun everyone!!!

Wish

Everybody makes a wish for themselves, and so do I.

But this time, I'm making a wish for you:

I wish that you will leave your past behind, drop that baggage and walk on forward to pick up new bags of experiences and take the next train down the happy lane where real joy and happiness awaits you. When you finally reach your destination of your dreams and ambitions and hope, I wish you will find a house where love fills the entire home. I pray that you will heal from your hurt and find a change in yourself to be a light to others and make a change in another person's life as well.

Sealed with sincerity.

Now I will move on with my life and piece together whatever I need to piece together, and find my way back to where I truly belong.

Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman

SRC

Women in the Role of Nation Building

JW Marriot Hotel 
We went for the luncheon for the launching of Dr Mahathir's new journal.

Here are some photos..

Smart smart everybody..

My style is a bit different..

OOPS!

Everybody, introducing to you UTAR SRC from Petaling Jaya and Sungai Long campus. Handsome boys pretty girls. ^^

Standing (left to right): Wai Tuck, Cassandra, Wen Kit

Sitting (left to right) : Yours truly me Jean, Ms Tee, Pui Mon

Don't we look like a great group of people? 　

Well, why so formal??? COME ON EVERYBODY! Give Miss Tee a big hug! HUGZ! Aw.....

Aren't we sweet? Don't talk about the guys.. LOL!

Well, we should take one picture of just Sungai Long and Petaling Jaya SRs. Well, I wonder why are the bosses standing the others sitting?

LOL.. over there, nobody is boss nobody is subordinates.. ^^ Everybody are one group of people who wanted to experience something new... SO everybody, SMILES!!

Sungai Long, wanna take a pic with Ms Tee without me?

Sungai Long : 'OF COURSE! We want you buat apa? SHoo far far! MS TEE!! Come here...' *this is totally made up kay? haha*

Oh well.. Fine.. haha.. here you go! Ka-CHAK!

Aihz... They just love the camera, don't they? Aihz... That's where all my memory went lar.. LOL...

Smile everyone.. Looking real good... Mm hmmmmm... ^^

Well, this time I want to be in the picture!!!

Ms Tee, come here... LOL!

Everybody, smile!

Aww... ain't we sweet? ^^

............................................................

Well, it's just us now!

Pui Mon and Jean

Friends who support one another through every thick and thin

lends our hand to one another for extra strength and reliability

Who listens to one another and upholds one another with sincerity

Stays for one another when things are down

Celebrates with one another when victory comes

Encourages one another when discouragement takes over

Talks to one another when conflict occurs

Forgives one another when mistakes and imperfection exists

Friends..

Thanks gurl!

Enjoy the salmon!!

It's yours....

My treat...

Free..

LOL!

Did I do anything wrong since the beginning? What have I done to deserve this kind of punishment that tortures every single part of me, emotionally, physically and mentally?

What is wrong with you? Why are you like that? Are you happy only when you finally push me to the brink of my sanity? Are you only contented when you finally see me collapse right in front of you?

What do you want? Who do you think you are? Are you the one who controls my life? Are you the one with the most power on earth that whoever does not follow your wants and orders and plans will have to die?

When only will you learn that people are not always perfect and as good as you think? When only will you learn to forgive people? When only will you learn to be normal and be open-minded? When only will you stop being such a jerk that only causes people pain and confusion and headache?

What on this damn earth do you think you are doing now? Do you even think you are any better than anybody? Do you even think that you are in anyway more matured than anybody else? Have you ever thought of what exactly was the wrong and mistake you made and put and effort to patch things up? Did you even try to be fine? Did you even try to let things go? Did you even try to change yourself and stop expecting people to change for you? Do you know that this world does not evolve around you? Do you even realise that you are no better than anybody else?

Is it that when you finally lose it only you want to appreciate it? When will you see that people do make mistakes? When will you see that sincerity I have to help you and treated it like rubbish and dust and threw them away with one simple throw?

Do you even know so many things that you do not even know?

Try to think for others in return, and put yourself in another person's situation and think for them. Maybe you will understand every single situation. Maybe only will you understand that you are not always right and I am not always wrong, and vice versa.

Maybe it is time you learn to think.

當初都是因爲我，都是因爲我，才會造成有今天這樣的結局。

如果當初我能沒那麽幼稚，沒對你說出不該說的話，沒對你說出可能傷到你的話，沒對你冷漠的對待，或許今天我們都還會是好好的。都是自己的錯，都是自己太情緒化。

我現在只能盡我最後一次的能力，只想再給多一次機會，希望能挽回我們曾經都很珍惜的那段友情。但若真地做不到了，那我也該悄悄地走開。 不想給大家任何的壓力，讓大家能夠在舒服的環境下完成這次的大型活動。但就希望沒有那個必要。

想說的，到時就會說完出來；想請求原諒的，到時候就會請求；需要放開的，到時候希望我們都能放得下，放得開；有需要原諒你的，已經原諒了。

到時候，希望我們都會盡力，不要讓難得當上朋友的緣分給丟了，放棄了。

到時候，希望我們都會勇敢，希望我們會以快樂的歡笑把不快樂得從前給淹蓋了，給抹去。

到時候，希望我們都能夠明白，當初，原來當朋友就是最幸福的。過了一些時候，才了解原來真的是那樣，原來你也說的對。是自己太固執，太幼稚。知道錯了，但不知道是不是太遲了。

到時候，希望我們都能為對方實現身為朋友陪伴在身旁的承諾，我們三個朋友，一同攜手走完這一段路程。

到時候。。我現在只能這樣希望了。希望我真的不需要讓我們從三變二。

朋友。。不想再失望了。。

I have tried my very best, so now it's all up to you.

I gave my effort, but if you don't accept it, then there is nothing much I can do. I cannot promise anything anymore, and within official matters, I will remain who I am, and other than that, personal matters I will keep aside.

Only God knows what will be the true ending, and I have given my best and done what I could. Only God knows what will happen next, either for the better or for the worst.

Square one or move forward, it's now your call.

I felt like shit.. And am still feeling like shit..

Why am I such a fool? Who am I to think that I could change you? Me?

At this point of time, I recall back what I have said to you, when I said I promise you that I will stay and help you. To be honest, I must be crazy.. I think I have been. Who am I trying to fool here with all those stupid things and promises?

It's my fault to blame that I only realised things were too late when the hurt was already too great. Thinking that maybe this time I could make that difference, but I must have been joking, just that I did not realise it was a joke.

I don't care if you read this or not, you are by far one of the worst I have came across and one of the worst I have tried to help and which at the end of the day I am the one who has to hurt more than you who claims that you are hurt! You are ridiculous, I am ridiculous.

We broke out from square one, now we brought things back to square one. Whatever that you say now, to me everything is just stupid words that comes out from you. No longer can I trust you in anything and with anything, and I know that I harbour hatred and anger towards you and this extra slash is difficult to mend.

Everything all around me now is killing me. If people can understand in what situation I am in, maybe things would be different. But I have my past, I have conditions I am ashamed of and which I cannot tell. Don't ask me to share anything which I do not want to, for I have the right to choose. And if you really intend to support me since the beginning, you wouldn't have disappointed me and discouraged me. You only did one, and you are already complaining. Do a few continuously, and maybe you will be able to feel how I felt when I was already tired and strained enough and now you are expecte to strain yourself even more. I also have a life. You have many things on your hands, and so do I. I have my mistakes, and so do all of you. If you cannot forgive, I cannot say much. But no matter how, this is how I truly felt - I have been battling ALONE.

Maybe it was just my sensitivity, and my inability to see. I feared so much, and worried so much that I really cannot hang on there. I am not as strong as certain people, I was cut out to be the worst in history. If you are looking into a perfect leader in me, I am sorry to disappoint you because no matter how I am still a human and I am still trying to learn to make the right decisions even if it is going to take me a whole life to do so.

Maybe someday I will be able to be happy again and know exactly what I am doing. Till now, I am still wondering and frantically searching.

And to you who have hurt me, we are truly back to square one. Hopefully someday things will turn to be better. You have gone too far and it was too much.