12.25.2009

First Christmas Together

24th December 2009.
It was our first Christmas together.
I did not know what to expect because I have never spent Christmas this way before.
But our celebration together was fun and at the same time romantic.
We spent Christmas together at 2 places, 1U and also The Curve.
We thought of watching movie at 1U, however because of delays in the parking, we kinda missed the slot for movie in 1U. Haha... But we managed to catch the 'Avatar' at The Curve during the last minute. But we managed to take a nice walk around the mall, and bought ourselves one shirt each. Not couple shirts though. ^ ^ The decorations for Christmas in 1U was pretty, and it was almost fairytale. I really enjoyed the pretty decorations. We took something light at Otak-otak Place before walking around the for a little more and leaving for The Curve for our Christmas dinner. The shop was special because it actually has a lot of memorable elements such as game cards and also decorations which we can relate back to our young times. I enjoyed spending the time with him walking and looking around and eating simple things. However, it kinda hurts me that he was not really feeling well and his legs were hurting, and yet he spent Christmas with me and gave me a very happy time on Christmas Eve.

After 1U, we went to The Curve after that for our Christmas dinner. We went to 'The Apartment' for dinner where Ken made a reservation there for both of us. The atmosphere there was really nice, though it was quite crowded. People were filling up The Street and the Christmas feel was really nice there. We sat outdoors, thus we were able to feel the Christmas feel outside. We sat facing one another with the candle light in between. We had Turkey creaser salad with crispy polenta for our appetizer, Chicken cordon blue with Christmas stuffing for our main dish and Sponge fingers with espresso tiramisu and strawberries for our dessert. Sharing one set of dinner together with him, somehow I feel it was really nice. The portion was big also, and we were thankful for not ordering 2 sets, else we would not be able to finish. Eating with candlelight, and the Christmas lights and Christmas songs around us, I felt that it was really magical, though it was slightly noisy. ^^ We went for a movie after that, and since it was a last minute plan, we left both our jackets in the car, and lo and behold, we were both cold in the cinema. Haha.. Ken gave me his bag to help keep me warm, but his hands ended up cold. The only thing I could do then was to keep his hands warm for him within my palms. How I wished that helped. Haha... By the time the movie ended, it was time for the countdown. We decided to not go down because the people were frantically spraying snow sprays and I kinda do not want to become a huge ball of foam walking around. Haha.. So we watched from above and waited for Christmas to come. When it finally came, we wished one another Merry Christmas and I don't even know how to describe how I felt then. But I felt warm in my heart that we waited for Christmas to come for the first time together.

We went back to our car after that, and to my surprise, he prepared me a Christmas present. It was a cute little pouch bag with a santa clause on it, and there was a small box of chocolates and also a bottle of 相思豆 which he picked one by one and collected them inside the bottle. I was really touched, and at the same time guilty, because I did not prepare him anything. And he gave me a rose, the first rose in my whole life, to me in the morning. I was already thrilled to receive the rose, though I know I did not really show, but when I got the present, I was about to burst into tears. He was so thoughtful and romantic, and all these while I did not expect and did not ask for one, because I was already happy enough that he took good care of me.

This was the best Christmas ever spent. And I am glad that he also spent Christmas lunch with me and my family and they went along well, and my parents were ok with him. Buffet was good I guess, since everybody was busy running about for food. ^^ Nice eating session.

I guess, I am just happy and blessed to have him with me this time. I hope we can spend the next Christmas together again. The warmth of the season is still in my heart, and I hope that this warmth will stay even through the rest of the year and the new year to come.

*Merry Christmas to all... May life be filled with joy and glad tidings, and may love fill every corner of your homes and heart *

12.20.2009

快樂與不快樂

假期了,多了很多時間,多了很多想事情的時間。
回想整個學期,發生了很多事情。
有快樂的,也有不快樂的。
不快樂的事情,到今天,都還是那個樣子。
沒有變得更好,反而可能變得更糟。
這些事情,到今天,都讓我覺得很難受。
充滿了失望,背叛。
但是答應了自己,要忘了它。
我不想爲了這些事情而被困擾。
忘了,不管了,可能會更開心一些。
快樂的事情,現在因爲它,也更幸福,更快樂。
找到了能夠愛自己的人,而自己也能愛的人,我已經很幸福了。
在不快樂的時候,回想起和他快樂的時光,嘴角就會浮現微微的笑容。
希望能夠永遠擁有這快樂,這幸福, 與他分享快樂與悲傷的事情。
我們能否永遠,還是個問號。
但是,無論如何,我會好好珍惜在一起的時間,
克服所有能克服的,
不放棄無法克服的,
選擇堅強地面對,
選擇為他犧牲付出。

家裏裝修著,
就快擁有一閒更美麗的房間,
新的家具,
擁有更好的讀書環境。
雖然現在真的被裝修的過程吵得有些人受不了,
但還真的好期待自己的房間會是怎樣的。

現在的我,
只希望自己能夠一直開心,
希望自己能好好休息,
好好調整自己的身體,
不想一直地那麽累,
想要好好享受一下生活。

快樂與不快樂
無論如何
都是一種經驗
但是
希望
快樂能夠比不快樂多

12.17.2009

RIP

RIP - Renovation In Progress

Well, it is seriously about to make me RIP as in rest in peace.

Every morning 'zzeeennggg.... zzzeeennnggg... zzzeeeenngggg....' and 'dop! dop! dop!', wow.... Though it is renovation for my own house, I still cannot take it. 9am in the morning, with no warning, the drilling starts and it serves as an early alarm clock for me, Pretty unfortunately, I am on a holiday, so this alarm clock's functions are not excatly helpful... T T

Oh well, hopefully they can end before Christmas, else I would be celebrating Christmas as a disorientated panda bear. We've gotten new tiles for the rooms, getting a new cupboard and new shelf for my room, getting new showers for the bathroom, and new tiles for the bathroom too.. So many new things.. And it's time for me to get some new clothes and maybe a pair of new shoes?

Oh well..... Here's comes the drilling...

'ZZZEEEEENNNNGGGG!!!!!!'

12.12.2009

Welcome, Holiday

The hols are back.

Time seems to be passing by faster than imagined, another year is about to come to an end, and another semester is over yet again. 

This holiday, I believe everybody are hoping for a good rest and break from everything. Furthermore, it is a Christmas holiday, who wouldn't want to throw everything behind and spend a good time shopping and enjoying the lovely moments and atmosphere of a beautiful Christmas season? 

I wish for the same things too. I really hope that this time round, I really get to rest. After a whole year, at least, for this time, I want to get a good rest and really sit down and clear my mind from everything. However, I know it is almost impossible to do so. No matter how, I just want to enjoy Christmas season with my family and him. I do not want to run the same routine of having to worry about so many things, because it is time for me to get some rest. I have miles and miles before me, and I want to be refreshed and rejuvenated before I continue running. 

The house is about to undergo renovation. Toilet is going to have new 'clothes' and new 'accessories', and my room will also have new 'clothes' and new 'accessories'. ^^ Going to be a big mess starting from next week. Have to move everything out of the room and move everything back in again after that. Wow... Such a hassle, but looking forward to have a new look for the bathroom and also the room. ^^ 

Christmas day is going to be interesting I guess. ^^ Somebody's gonna join the family for lunch, buffet... ^^ I wonder what is going to happen, but definitely will look forward to it. ^^ Hopefully mummy and daddy won't scare this person away, because they are very prone to do so when they are over nervous. Especially mummy. ^^ Hehe... I will be hoping for the best. 

Oh well.. ^^ Don't know what else to say for now. Barbie Doll just hopes for a better life and happy endings all the time. ^^ For now, I found one. There will be more happy endings to come.

Hopefully exams also happy endings... >.< Let's not worry about that first eh?

Happy Holidays! and a Merry Christmas!!

12.07.2009

Just a thought... Just a thought... Just a thought... Just a thought...

Disclaimer:

This is just a thought, with no other meaning.

I repeat again. This is just a thought, with no other meaning. Just a thought, with no other meaning.

Just a thought, with no other meaning.  Haha...

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Nowadays, people are dying young, and I really wonder how life is really after life. Obviously I won't know, cause I am still here alive. Yet, I always have the thought, that those young people never had a chance to go through so many things that they have always longed for and yearned to go through. Not anymore another birthday, not anymore looking forward for a graduation, not anymore to tie the knot with the person they love, not anymore to spend those days looking after their little children, growing up and resembling them.

Every single funeral, full of somberness, heartache of losing someone they love.

Thus, I planned a simple plan for my funeral, JUST IN CASE, I don't get past those later times. But I bet I will be going through those later times alive.

No matter how, this is just a thought. Just a thought. ^^

Lately, I fell in love with a song named Nothing Better by Brown Eyed Soul. Though I don't know the meaning of the song, but I definitely love the melody. I loved it so much that it brought tears to my eyes each time I listen to it. I like the softness of the song. I would love it that this song will be played on funeral rather than any Amazing Grace. But the song may still be sang, no problem. ^^

And I would like the hall where my casket lies be filled with roses of white and red, making it almost like a garden for me. Like I'm lying on a bed of roses. It brings meaning, because roses have petals and thorns, meaning good and bad. Lying within that hall full of roses, keeps a reminder that I have went through thick and thin, good and bad times. Every petal and every thorn symbolizes a memory to me, thus I want to lie surrounded by them, though I cannot see them any longer nor remember them any longer.

I have always loved white color, therefore I would like to be in a white simple dress when I go. At least, during my last, I want to still look my best, be dressed in my best. ^^

However, everything written there, are just for thought. Just for a thought. I have repeated like umptin times. ^^ Yet, if I can change all those rough ideas for my wedding way way way years later, it would look great too, don't you think so?


Well, I don't control the timing of life, but I will try to live my best, though it is really difficult to do so.

Carpe Diem. 

12.06.2009

Rain

It's raining again.

Listen to the raindrops beating upon the rooftops, see the people on the streets running to get shelter across the streets, see the umbrellas of different colors open up like flowers blooming on fields of tar, look at the raindrops falling like drops of dew on leaves of trees, rain, though beautiful, it is still cold and lonely.

In every sad scene within any shows or music videos, rain is almost a must to create the somber atmosphere. They let the rain soak them wet and let their tears flow and the rain washes them away. Maybe that is why. Maybe that is the conditioning factor. Maybe that is why when the rain comes, loneliness gets a hold of me.

That's why when it rains, I often wishes that I am asleep, because I do not like the feeling, and I do not want to entertain it at all. But when I can't, I know that I will just have to wait for the rain to be over and hopefully the rays of the sun that comes after it will be able to brighten me up.

Rain, it is always amazing how you can bring about such feelings and emotions.

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When the sun is shining

I will stand right behind you
I will walk with you
When it starts to drizzle
I will come nearer to you
Ready to shelter you
When the rain pours
I will be right beside you
With an umbrella to shelter you
Until the sun shines again
In every season
I will be around for you
To shelter you
To comfort you

12.01.2009

Whoosh~

Whoosh~ Whoosh~ Whoosh~

Finally... OOO... Finally...

All assignments for this semester is over! OH YEA~

Lol.. Did our demonstrative speech presentation today, and we had a great time preparing our breakfast in class. Lol... Let's see...
-Kimberly did a banana salad with orange juice as dressing... Nyam nyam...
-Wei Shen did oatmeal porridge... wu... It actually tasted fantabulous!
-Wei Boon cooked a New Leftover Breakfast, with vege, soup and rice and fish.. I LUP IT!
-I made P-A-R-F-A-I-T.. With yogurt, fruits and cereals.. IF you wanna try, let me know... Heheh... Maybe we can make Parfaits... With the right ratios that is.. LOL..

Well, unbelievamazingly, our whole breakfast set was DELICIOUS! Haha... I actually enjoyed it a lot... Oo lala.. haha... It just tasted GREAT! Made me super happy today... ^^

And our other assignment was also well.. Thanks to Ah Boon, Kim, Hsing and Heman. You guys did really great... ^^ Do take all the credits! You deserve it, all of it!

Quite a happy day today. Since almost everything in this semester is done, left only one paper for the semester finals. But I guess...There's nothing much I can do except to read. T.T

Oh well.. a bit over happy and in ecstasy (not the pills... I mean my feeling).. Just for today friends. After this I will be back to normal.. The serious and less crazy Jean. DON GO 'YA RIGHT.....'... haha...

Well.. Better get ready for meeting now.. Lol...

Sign off loo...

Happy day today... At least I'm happy for today. ^^

11.30.2009

Same or different

There's a story site, and there are a lot of stories inside it. Somehow or rather, I find that story site's stories are always the same. Almost the same storyline, with similar or same endings. The last story is still halfway through, and somehow I wonder if the last story will also end up like the few stories before it. If it does, I'm sure it's going to be a sad and hurtful ending. Hopefully the author of the story will not make the story the same. All the more when all the stories are using the same main character.

Will keep going with the story, because I really want to know what the ending will be like.

Same or different?

Hopefully it will be different.

Please be different.

11.22.2009

ConePizza

Firstly..
CONGRATULATIONS
to Pui Mon and family on the opening of their new shop!
Thanks for the invitation. ^^

It was a saturday
and after the visitation to the shop
I bet we did not want to go home
LOL
So guess what?
Kelvin, Ken and I
went and grab something which looks like an ice-cream but is not an ice-cream
pizza but not really conventionally a pizza
Lol
We went for ConePizza
situated in Tmn Sri Rampai
Take a look..


Yeap
I don't quite remember all the names for it
Not because it was in italian
Just that I could not remember one of them ^^
But anyways
I guess the conepizza was pretty much fine
And for sure whatever you see on the illustration is not the real thing
but yet
I think it was still considered a satisfaction^^
The fillings were bountiful
the crust was alright
and somebody said that as you eat till the end of the cone
it kinda turned to become roti canai
Lol
The price is approx RM11-RM12 per cone I guess^^
Never really flipped through all the prices in the menu
But if you're looking for something more filling
DO check out the sets section
else go for the pasta
LOL
Yea
I think this is about all I can tell you about this cone-y food
^^
Enjoy eating your screen!
^^

11.21.2009

To my Lappy

Dearest laptop,

Without you, my life feels a little empty. How's life staying at the workshop?

Do you know you hold everything which is very important to me with you? Do you know you hold all my memories in you? Do you know you are the one that holds everything that I need?

Now, without you, all that are important to me are no longer here with me, all my memories you have taken along with you, and all that I need you cannot provide for me any longer.

I need all my documents for my assignments and all the notes I put inside your hardisk, I want all the pictures which are all the memories I have, and I need all the softwares installed in you to finish my assignment and do my work. You took everything with you, and you never tell me when you will be coming back.

I know I have hit you, because the fan in you was not spinning. I had to hit you so that you can stay with me. That was my only way.

Please come back soon, lappy. I miss you very much, I need you very much too. Please get well soon and come back to me. Come back with a new fan so that I don't need to hit you anymore. I will take very good care of you. I promise.

Love,
Your owner

11.19.2009

How to renovate?

I am still wondering how to renovate my blog layout and stuff. Always seeing the same things are a little boring.

If only I could hire someone without the need to pay.. But OH COME ON!! It's called HIRING! How to HIRE without money?

Well... Not really free nowadays to do renovation also...

Let's wait for a day I can sit down and figure out how to renovate...

Design.. Design.. Design...

11.18.2009

Jean

I was looking at the sidebars of my blog, and I didn't really paid any attention to this column all the while, but today I stopped at it and took another read at it - What JEAN really means.

Let's see how true it is..
You are fair, honest, and logical. 
Fair - Maybe yes, maybe not. But most of the time, I play the fair game.
Honest - I am honest when I need to be, but if it takes a lie to really save my own butt, honesty is out of the context. 
Logical - Logical probably in the sense that I do not want to do things which I find it a waste of my time and near to impossible to do.  

You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
Natural leader - Honestly, I do not have a single clue whether this is true or not, because I do not know what attributes a natural leader will need to have. 
People respect you - It depends, I suppose. Some respect, some don't. It's just whether the majority is on the 'yes' or on the 'no'.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

Never give up - I always have thoughts to give up, but at the end of the day, I do always make a turn around and continue on with it. Uncertainties and emotional surges. Oh well..
Will succeed - I suppose everybody in this world wants to succeed. I won't want to deny this.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. 

Rational to see every part of a problem - Well, I think it takes other people to tell me about this? Because I have not really evaluated myself on this as yet.  
You are great at giving other people advice.
Great at giving advice - I think it takes the feedback from people who have taken my advice before.  
You are friendly, charming, and warm.
Friendly - I suppose I am when I am in the right situation and where the ice can be broken.
Charming - I have no comments on this. 
Warm - I am a warm-hearted person, but sometimes I get driven cold. 
You get along with almost everyone.
Get along with almost everyone - Maybe yes in the beginning, but it takes a lot of effort to stay this way at the end of the day.
You work hard not to rock the boat.

Work hard not to rock the boat - Probably everybody also does this, just that some succeed and some don't. Well, I'm one of the don'ts. 
Your easy going attitude brings people together.
Easy going - I am not sure if I am easy going, maybe somebody can tell me. Personally, I don't think so.
Brings people together - I have never seen myself doing this before.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. 

Flaky - Probably yes.
Irresponsible - Yea... I do have irresponsible times, and sometimes major.  
But for the important things, you pull it together.
Important things, pull it together - Maybe somebody can tell me about this too.  
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
Best at everything - I won't say everything, and I won't say the best either. 
Strive for perfection - Oh well.. I guess I have to agree 85% with this. Unless I really do not bother anymore.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

Confident - Talk about the outward look, but inwardly, it's probably only about 50% of what you see on the outside.
Authoritative - I guess I am sometimes a control freak, dictatorial. Cutting down on it. 
Aggressive - Truly aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

Type A - I do not understand the 'Type A personality'. 
You are very intuitive and wise. 
Intuitive - Intuitions cannot be trusted. 
Wise - Not very, but there is a certain level of it.  
You understand the world better than most people.
Understand the world - Through experiences, I suppose anybody will also know the world better than anybody else.
You also have a very active imagination.

Active imagination - I honestly cannot deny this. And though imaginations are good, they often get in the way of many things.  
You often get carried away with your thoughts.
Carried away with thoughts - For sure... Undeniable. 
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy.
Paranoia - Quite paranoid at times I suppose.
Jealousy - True enough.

You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
Overboard in interpreting signals - Sometimes I do intend to do so. 

Well, nobody is perfect in any way.
I just have to be happy the way I am, and whatever that I can change, then I will try my best, isn't it?
And say... Now that I look through that list, no wonder it's so difficult for me to find Mr Right.
Haha...
Well.. Guess it was pretty accurate.
Apparently.. =)

11.17.2009

1 pair of footprints, or 2?

I wonder when I walk on sand, will I see 1 pair of footprints or 2?
Or 1 pair of footprints deeply sunk into the sand?

1 pair -  I am walking alone
2 pairs - somebody is walking with me
1 pair, deeply sunk into the sand - somebody is carrying me to walk across my journey

Sometimes I ponder upon it.. And I wish I see only one pair of footprints, deeply sunk into the sand, because then I know somebody is carrying me to walk my journeys of life. That I don't have to rely on my own strength, and I have somebody to rely upon.

I am still searching. Still looking forward to seeing that set of footprints.

11.16.2009

Rainbow in Class




Don't ask me...
But a rainbow appeared in class...
Which is all seven of us!!
Red..
Orange..
Yellow..
Green..
Blue..
Indigo..
Purple..
Hahaha...
It was not planned..
It just happened..
With a rainbow..
Guess even during the rain..
There will better days..
Have fun everyone!!!

11.12.2009

Wish

Everybody makes a wish for themselves, and so do I.

But this time, I'm making a wish for you:

I wish that you will leave your past behind, drop that baggage and walk on forward to pick up new bags of experiences and take the next train down the happy lane where real joy and happiness awaits you. When you finally reach your destination of your dreams and ambitions and hope, I wish you will find a house where love fills the entire home. I pray that you will heal from your hurt and find a change in yourself to be a light to others and make a change in another person's life as well.

Sealed with sincerity.

Now I will move on with my life and piece together whatever I need to piece together, and find my way back to where I truly belong.

11.11.2009

Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman
SRC
Women in the Role of Nation Building
JW Marriot Hotel 
We went for the luncheon for the launching of Dr Mahathir's new journal.
Here are some photos..
Smart smart everybody..
My style is a bit different..
OOPS!

Everybody, introducing to you UTAR SRC from Petaling Jaya and Sungai Long campus. Handsome boys pretty girls. ^^
Standing (left to right): Wai Tuck, Cassandra, Wen Kit
Sitting (left to right) : Yours truly me Jean, Ms Tee, Pui Mon
Don't we look like a great group of people?  

Well, why so formal??? COME ON EVERYBODY! Give Miss Tee a big hug! HUGZ! Aw.....
Aren't we sweet? Don't talk about the guys.. LOL!

Well, we should take one picture of just Sungai Long and Petaling Jaya SRs. Well, I wonder why are the bosses standing the others sitting?
LOL.. over there, nobody is boss nobody is subordinates.. ^^ Everybody are one group of people who wanted to experience something new... SO everybody, SMILES!!

Sungai Long, wanna take a pic with Ms Tee without me?
Sungai Long : 'OF COURSE! We want you buat apa? SHoo far far! MS TEE!! Come here...' *this is totally made up kay? haha*
Oh well.. Fine.. haha.. here you go! Ka-CHAK!

Aihz... They just love the camera, don't they? Aihz... That's where all my memory went lar.. LOL...
Smile everyone.. Looking real good... Mm hmmmmm... ^^

Well, this time I want to be in the picture!!!
Ms Tee, come here... LOL!
Everybody, smile!
Aww... ain't we sweet? ^^
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Well, it's just us now!
Pui Mon and Jean
Friends who support one another through every thick and thin
lends our hand to one another for extra strength and reliability
Who listens to one another and upholds one another with sincerity
Stays for one another when things are down
Celebrates with one another when victory comes
Encourages one another when discouragement takes over
Talks to one another when conflict occurs
Forgives one another when mistakes and imperfection exists
Friends..
Thanks gurl!

Enjoy the salmon!!
It's yours....
My treat...
Free..
LOL!

11.10.2009

Did I do anything wrong since the beginning? What have I done to deserve this kind of punishment that tortures every single part of me, emotionally, physically and mentally?

What is wrong with you? Why are you like that? Are you happy only when you finally push me to the brink of my sanity? Are you only contented when you finally see me collapse right in front of you?

What do you want? Who do you think you are? Are you the one who controls my life? Are you the one with the most power on earth that whoever does not follow your wants and orders and plans will have to die?

When only will you learn that people are not always perfect and as good as you think? When only will you learn to forgive people? When only will you learn to be normal and be open-minded? When only will you stop being such a jerk that only causes people pain and confusion and headache?

What on this damn earth do you think you are doing now? Do you even think you are any better than anybody? Do you even think that you are in anyway more matured than anybody else? Have you ever thought of what exactly was the wrong and mistake you made and put and effort to patch things up? Did you even try to be fine? Did you even try to let things go? Did you even try to change yourself and stop expecting people to change for you? Do you know that this world does not evolve around you? Do you even realise that you are no better than anybody else?

Is it that when you finally lose it only you want to appreciate it? When will you see that people do make mistakes? When will you see that sincerity I have to help you and treated it like rubbish and dust and threw them away with one simple throw?

Do you even know so many things that you do not even know?

Try to think for others in return, and put yourself in another person's situation and think for them. Maybe you will understand every single situation. Maybe only will you understand that you are not always right and I am not always wrong, and vice versa.

Maybe it is time you learn to think.

11.06.2009

當初都是因爲我,都是因爲我,才會造成有今天這樣的結局。

如果當初我能沒那麽幼稚,沒對你說出不該說的話,沒對你說出可能傷到你的話,沒對你冷漠的對待,或許今天我們都還會是好好的。都是自己的錯,都是自己太情緒化。

我現在只能盡我最後一次的能力,只想再給多一次機會,希望能挽回我們曾經都很珍惜的那段友情。但若真地做不到了,那我也該悄悄地走開。 不想給大家任何的壓力,讓大家能夠在舒服的環境下完成這次的大型活動。但就希望沒有那個必要。

想說的,到時就會說完出來;想請求原諒的,到時候就會請求;需要放開的,到時候希望我們都能放得下,放得開;有需要原諒你的,已經原諒了。

到時候,希望我們都會盡力,不要讓難得當上朋友的緣分給丟了,放棄了。

到時候,希望我們都會勇敢,希望我們會以快樂的歡笑把不快樂得從前給淹蓋了,給抹去。

到時候,希望我們都能夠明白,當初,原來當朋友就是最幸福的。過了一些時候,才了解原來真的是那樣,原來你也說的對。是自己太固執,太幼稚。知道錯了,但不知道是不是太遲了。

到時候,希望我們都能為對方實現身為朋友陪伴在身旁的承諾,我們三個朋友,一同攜手走完這一段路程。

到時候。。我現在只能這樣希望了。希望我真的不需要讓我們從三變二。

朋友。。不想再失望了。。

11.02.2009

I have tried my very best, so now it's all up to you.

I gave my effort, but if you don't accept it, then there is nothing much I can do. I cannot promise anything anymore, and within official matters, I will remain who I am, and other than that, personal matters I will keep aside.

Only God knows what will be the true ending, and I have given my best and done what I could. Only God knows what will happen next, either for the better or for the worst.

Square one or move forward, it's now your call.
I felt like shit.. And am still feeling like shit..

Why am I such a fool? Who am I to think that I could change you? Me?

At this point of time, I recall back what I have said to you, when I said I promise you that I will stay and help you. To be honest, I must be crazy.. I think I have been. Who am I trying to fool here with all those stupid things and promises?

It's my fault to blame that I only realised things were too late when the hurt was already too great. Thinking that maybe this time I could make that difference, but I must have been joking, just that I did not realise it was a joke.

I don't care if you read this or not, you are by far one of the worst I have came across and one of the worst I have tried to help and which at the end of the day I am the one who has to hurt more than you who claims that you are hurt! You are ridiculous, I am ridiculous.

We broke out from square one, now we brought things back to square one. Whatever that you say now, to me everything is just stupid words that comes out from you. No longer can I trust you in anything and with anything, and I know that I harbour hatred and anger towards you and this extra slash is difficult to mend.

Everything all around me now is killing me. If people can understand in what situation I am in, maybe things would be different. But I have my past, I have conditions I am ashamed of and which I cannot tell. Don't ask me to share anything which I do not want to, for I have the right to choose. And if you really intend to support me since the beginning, you wouldn't have disappointed me and discouraged me. You only did one, and you are already complaining. Do a few continuously, and maybe you will be able to feel how I felt when I was already tired and strained enough and now you are expecte to strain yourself even more. I also have a life. You have many things on your hands, and so do I. I have my mistakes, and so do all of you. If you cannot forgive, I cannot say much. But no matter how, this is how I truly felt - I have been battling ALONE.

Maybe it was just my sensitivity, and my inability to see. I feared so much, and worried so much that I really cannot hang on there. I am not as strong as certain people, I was cut out to be the worst in history. If you are looking into a perfect leader in me, I am sorry to disappoint you because no matter how I am still a human and I am still trying to learn to make the right decisions even if it is going to take me a whole life to do so.

Maybe someday I will be able to be happy again and know exactly what I am doing. Till now, I am still wondering and frantically searching.

And to you who have hurt me, we are truly back to square one. Hopefully someday things will turn to be better. You have gone too far and it was too much.

10.20.2009

My gift

It was merely a foolish sacrifice.
But still, a sacrifice might bring a change.
And this change might give the one a better life.
I don't know how long will it take,
I don't know what the end will be like,
but I just hope for the best.
When I finally can pass the baton,
I will.
It was merely a foolish sacrifice,
but yet, though foolish it is,
it is worthwhile.
Till the end comes,
I will stay right behind,
right behind to be counted on.
I will hold,
I will mend,
I will care,
I will create.
This is a promise.
A promise I made for the first time,
and intend to keep for the last time.

Hands were made to hold a person when he or she falls,
to give a hug when comfort is needed,
to give a pat on the back when encouragement is needed,
to type a message when enlightenment is needed.
My hands will always be there,
ready to hold you when you fall,
ready to hug you when you need comfort,
ready to give you a pat on the back when you need encouragement,
to type you a message when you need enlightenment.

10.18.2009

4am

Sunday morning,4am.
We were there till 4am.
We talked, we shared, we discussed.
There was a time we could not work together,
a time we could not speak to one another,
a time where we could not face one another.

However,
on a Sunday morning,
we sat together,
we talked to one another.
We tried to understand one another,
we appreciated one another.

It was this.
It was just this one thing.
It was just one simple step.

I do not want to keep being that way.
I wanted to keep aside.
To keep people's flaws aside,
and look at the beauty which they possess.
I needed to change. 
I learned that everybody is different,
that everybody is beautiful.
I tried to change.
I put aside my pride,
put aside my ego.
At least,
things are turning around.

We talked about love.
We talked about the past. 
We talked about the conditions of our heart.
We talked about hurt.
We talked about decisions.
But the most painful of all in which we spoke was - Love. 

Love..
It can be sweet like honey but yet poisonous like venom.
But it all takes the sacrifice.
It all takes the commitment.
The feeling is for a moment,
but the decision is yours to make,
the commitment is yours to take.
Taking it up was easy,
but now to put it down is difficult.
When betrayal strikes,
when chances were taken for granted,
when you thought that was right but it was not.
The hurt, unbearable,
the pain, undeniable.
One wrong choice after another.
When memories come searching,
when memories become haunting,
when memories don't fade that easily,
the heartache becomes overwhelming.
Commitment,
perseverance,
understanding,
support,
loyalty,
they are really so difficult.
But they come in a package,
you cannot lose anyone of them.
That's when love really is love.
When you decide to be with someone,
when you decide to accept the heart of a person,
a heart as fragile as thin glass.
Some can play,
some cannot.
I cannot.
A heart is not for playing.
The heart is where you lay your life.
Without a heart,
you live without a life.
When a heart is severely scarred,
a heart becomes stone cold.
You know how to love your own life,
why can't you treasure the life of another person as well?
To treasure is not only to prevent murder,
but also to learn to love without a reason,
without too many expectations.
In which relationship people don't get hurt?
In which relationship people don't get neglected?
In a relationship, the normal life still goes on.
A relationship is a gift.
A gift where you have somebody to stay by your side.
A gift where you can count on someone to listen to you when you desperately needs to pour.
A gift where you encounter different emotions and a learning process.

We can cry,
we can give up,
but at the end of the day,
we still cannot close our heart.
As much as I wanted to,
I know I could not.
I can only try to see the brighter side of things.
I lose you today, I will find another.
Another whom I will be able to love more and appreciate.
Another who is better than you who left.
I will find another until I finally find it right.
So many people,
I might meet the wrong one,
but through the hurt and pain encountered,
I will learn to love the next better.
Love, a God-given gift to all mankind,
we cannot give up loving.
We may walk the paths where we will remember the past,
the memories once sweet to our hearts but now aching us,
but we will look forward,
we will not give up,
we cannot give up.
We need to be stronger,
we need to learn to love better.
Do not sigh over things that are gone,
but start looking forward for things that are to come.
Sighing over the past,
looking backwards,
it stumbles us in holding on to what's better.
Just like driving on a highway,
you cannot look back,
you have to keep looking forward.
You have a destination,
you want to go to somewhere better.
You need to reach a place.
You cannot look back.
When you look back,
you might run into something which you could have prevented from doing so,
you might miss the turning to where you wanted to go.
If you keep thinking of looking back,
you will lose even your life for not driving with full concentration.
Things in life were not made to move backwards,
we build things and invented things,
and almost everything goes forward.
Cellphones become trendier and with more functions,
and we don't invent things to go back to stone age writing on stone tablets.
Cars are driven forward,
cars are never driven backwards on a highway.
People have eyes on the front,
nobody have their eyes on the back.
We naturally walk forward,
we don't walk backwards.
So never look back,
never go back,
always go forward.
You will find better,
you will get better.
Time is not everything,
but the willingness to open the heart once more is the key to everything.


I am trying,
I am melting my stone cold heart.
I am taking one step at a time,
and I will look forward.
There's still a long race ahead,
a long run full of obstacles and challenges till the day I really meet the end.
There will be multiple hurts that will come my way,
but let's take that as a blessing.
A blessing to make the heart stronger than before.
Trees without wind won't grow to be strong,
and sometimes as tiny and weak as grasses,
they can still withstand the strong wind that comes.
Let's be that way,
let's learn to see things in another perspective.
Maybe we will learn something,
and not only remember the negative.
Everybody will have a story behind them,
a story which we feel sad when we share,
we feel disappointed when we speak of it,
but that's what makes each person different.
You know why people say life is unfair?
Because they never weigh what they have and don't with other's.
Life is fair.
You have something different, and another person has something different.
You were not given something, and the other person is not given something else.
Because everybody cannot have the same things.
If everybody has the same things,
nobody will be able to help anybody when something different happens in our life.
Life is full of surprises,
anything can happen any moment.
We need people's experiences to comfort and help us through,
and things change rapidly.
And if everybody has the same thing,
nobody can help anybody.
And if everybody has everything,
we do not have the ability to hold on to the responsibilities of what we have and we should do with it.

Hurts are part and parcel of life,
we just have to learn to embrace it.
The more we fight with it,
the more pain we get.
If we learn to embrace it and learn from it,
we will know how to let it go and live beyond it.
Time will teach,
experience will teach,
people will teach.
Love,
never an easy thing,
be it between lovers or family.
But that's a gift.
That's how we learn to grow.
It's for you to learn from it.
Think about it..
everything that comes with it,
let it be a gift from heaven,
given to all mankind for the better.
It is a gift,
A gift.

Till 4am,
we were there till 4am,
let 4am on a Sunday morning be a turning point for all of us.

4am,
that was another gift heaven sent.

10.12.2009

Wow...

Been such a long time since I last posted anything.. Lol..

Maybe because I really have nothing to post about...

Sorry BLOGGIE!

Oh well... Still on my semester break currently, and let's see... Nothing much going on, still tired as usual.

But then, not that I don't have anything to share... Hehe...

Well, we had our music video assignment during the previous semester. Hehe...

Managed to do something interesting during that time... Guess what? Managed to write my own song, get the melody, get my own musicians and record it in a professional studio! Woo hoo! That was fun... It is a mandarin song entitled 代替, in english called Replacement or Substitution.

But of course, not forgetting to give credits to these people...

TAA DAA!

Piano - Ji Ling
Electric Guitar - Cheong Hoe
Bass - Tze Con
Drums - Joel Yap
Strings - James Yee (dearest former boss, special thanks too for the studio partial sponsorship)

Deepest appreciation and thanks to all of you... ^^

Here's a summary of the song for those who do not know mandarin...

The song is written in the perspective of a late-friend who wanted to send a message to the friend who is still alive, telling her that he/she is thankful for all the times they had together and wishes that the friend will be able to move on in life with somebody new whom he/she can trust and lean on to. The friend who is alive eventually found someone who could replace the gap left behind by the late-friend and thus, a replacement.

This is the simple summary. ^^

Here's the vid.



真得很抱歉
我买不过时间
已经不能继续陪在你身边
你哭红双眼
我只能默默安慰
背叛的感觉
是否很强烈

日记已翻开
夹着我们的照片
记载着你和我
所有的事件
不知不觉之间
字迹已慢慢化开
我走的突然
是否很迷茫

虽然你看不见我
也听不见我
说的每一句
我依然要告诉你
我还在这里
要做你小小保护天使
守护安慰你
一步一脚印
要陪你走下去

亲爱的朋友
永远都在我心里
风吹雨淋
我要为你遮风挡雨
做不到的事情
会找人去代替
悄悄得给你往前的勇气
亲爱的朋友
永远都会珍惜你
我们的回忆
珍藏在我记忆里
我不会忘记
幸福就是因为有你
我答应永远守护你

虽然你看不见我
也听不见我
说的每一句
我依然要告诉你
我还在这里
要做你小小保护天使
守护安慰你
一步一脚印
要陪你走下去

亲爱的朋友
永远都在我心里
风吹雨淋
我要为你遮风挡雨
做不到的事情
会找人去代替
悄悄得给你往前的勇气
亲爱的朋友
永远都会珍惜你
我们的回忆
珍藏在我记忆里
我不会忘记
幸福就是因为有你
我答应永远守护你

亲爱的朋友
他会带我守护你
直到有一天再相遇

Hope you will like it and do comment if you want to, both the video and the song. ^^ Constructive criticisms are also welcomed... Constructive kay? ^^

Director : Louise Liew Bee Hwang - Congrats gurl!
Composer and singer, online editor : Yee Hui Juin, Jean - Me..
Offline editors: Janice Ng Min Yuet, Loh Yee Xin,Tan Yon Lynn
Actors and actresses : Singer - Mei Shi
Girl friend - Min Lynn
Boy friend - Wei Boon
Wardrobe lady - Jophennie

Hehe... That's about all the credits..

Alrighty.. That's all for now..

Until the next time I have something to add.. ^^

Tata!

7.27.2009

Hey Hey Hey everybody!



안녕하세요! 잘있어서요? 전여기잘있어요..



I'm now at Korea, posting up a blog post for some updates...

Haha... Anyways, reached here in Korea on 26th July, and let's say the airplane ride ain't that good because I was way too hungry on board and by the time I eat I was already half fainting. Haha... But everything was fine when I got down and hm... We actually had a couple of hours before the people from Mokpo comes over and pick us up, so we made s trip to the nearest temple to take a look at the surroundings. Really nice scenery actually, except that the bugs were a little noisy. What do you expect in the middle of nowhere jungle? ^^ Anyways, we made a trip there and got to know the Korean tourist guide named Nicole. Nice girl... Haha...

Then we took McD for breakfast there, and never did I know that they don't have fries in their set meals. Oh well... I had a shrimp burger for and then we went on waiting. The bus came after quite a long time, and there were other people from other countries who boarded the bus with us for this program. There are 2 guys from Spain, Moon and Michel, 2 gurls from Taiwan as well. A girl from Ukrain called Titania. Well, in the bus, UTAR was majority. Haha.. so that's how it was...

We stopped halfway for dinner at one of the rest stops. Let's say that when we look at it, I suppose a gush of shame overwhelmed us as their rest stops were very well-maintained and it was clean and nice. Hmm... no comparison am I going to make it here.. ^^ We had some stew and also sauced rice for dinner and continued our journey off to Mokpo. Hehe... On the way, I managed to capture some nice sceneries and at the same time recorded the setting of an orange flaming sun. Hoho... Nice... We reached Mokpo about 10pm Korean time and whew... really tired then. Had some games as well though. Hoho... By the way, the rooms were really high tech, specially on the door knobs or handles. Haha.. no need keys or anything anymore. Save the hassle, and it's good... HAha... Bathroom is nice as well, not bad. And I'm in the same room with a Russian name Natalyia (Read : Natashia)...

Next day, we had our breakfast, an opening ceremony and a simple orientation, then we headed down to Mokpo Town to learn the Sa Mul No Ri (사무너리), a traditional instrument play with 4 different instruments to symbolise the harmonies of the wind, clouds, thunder and lake. Well, don't quite understand that, but yea.. Haha... we played something which is easy to catch if you don't have to sing along. Haha... Then we were taught some dance which really cracked all of us up and make us rolling on the floor. The dance was more like a drama. The storyline is something like a grandma goes around looking for grandpa, and along the way found a caterpiller which made her feel itchy and she killed it, and at the end she ended up in the washroom. Haha... Funny ain't it? Haha... it is... Well, fun though. We wore the masks which are nice but really scary and after some pictures we went back to the uni. HAha...

At night we went to the supermarket to buy some stuff, and on the way back, we went to eat some fried chicken. HAha... I won't say KFC is nicer or Korean Fried Chickens are nicer, but I would say.. not bad... ^^ Haha... Then we stopped by the a stall shop on the street and bought some rice cakes for supper and also tasted some local simple street food. ^^ Quite fun... Another thing, although it is called summer, it is actually very cold here. Brrr... regrets... I have more shorts than long. HAha... Well, will live with that. ^^

Well, so far these are all we did because this is the first day of activity. SO... haha... more will come... I'll update when there's something more... HEhe...

Sign off in Korea

7.03.2009

Finding and searching and finding and searching, finding and searching for people who can play the electric guitar and bass for the song which I composed for our group's music video..

Can find the person, the person is not free. People that are free might not have the skills I expect to enhance the song. Aihz.. No perfect one who is skillful and free at the same time??

Studio booking is not easy also, everything in the late night. And I only have around another week more to finish the song off including the singing part.

And so much to complete... Illustrator assignment, photoshop assignment to hand in 2 weeks b4 due date, moral assignment, trying to cope with the Student Rep matters which if there's no support and cooperation from my comm members, I'm a piece of dead meat and I will literally go insane, and I have my comm theories assignment and presentation to complete, all within 3 weeks. How? Cannot how anymore, have to do it no matter by hook or by crook.

Finding for a machine that will do all the work.. All I need is a remote control to control what the machine does.

As usual, pain and gain, pain that I have to do so much in such a short time, gain that I will be away for a good rest and study trip in Korea. Nothing is perfect in this world.. everything so balanced. Can we go a lil unbalanced sometimes? Sobs...

Back to work..

6.25.2009

Wow... it's been like ages since I last signed in and say something in this long-neglected blog. Lol..

Anyways, here's some updates about me, just in case u wanna know. Hehe..

1. This coming July, I'll be going to Korea for a cultural study trip. Really looking forward to going there and have some fun, but at the same time, driving myself nuts with the rush of assignments that will be due during the times that I am away. Sobs.. Guess everything has lose and gain. But I wish to lose the fats. Lol... Anyways, will be going there for about 2 weeks, and we'll be at Mokpo. Going anywhere else, you ask? No idea.. Hehe.. haven't get the full schedule as yet. Hehe... But definitely there will be a temple stay which is going to be really fun. Haha... wonder what will it be like. Lol... but I hope to be able to buy a hanbok and wear. Hehe... They seem to be really nice. Well, nothing much to talk about this until I come back from the trip. Will buy some souveniors if they are not too expensive. Until then, this is all about the trip I will talk about. hehe

2. UTAR SRC election coming soon, but PJ campus have already got their committee, and yours truly is the president. To be honest, as honest as possible, I actually am supremely worried about how well I will be able to handle the job. Even the first unofficial meeting itself already has a lot of problems, and I do not know what to do and how to handle them. Well, what can I do? Now that I am in, I will be in for a whole year. I cannot run unless I go missing la.. But of course that will not happen. For people who have confidence in me, I say 'thank you' but I still need to find that confidence in myself. Well, I can only say 'Help' and hopefully somebody will come by and save my life.

3. Bad hair days... Well, we'll forget about those for the moment. Dear hair, grow ASAP k? Aihz... ugly ugly me. Aihz...

Hmm... at the moment can't think about anything much cause I'm currently in the saloon. Lol... while my hair is being cut, I am typing my post. Well, will update more next time... Hehe

HOT!

6.01.2009

Kim Hee Chul

I've never seen somebody who can really talk like a chicken butt and offend people all around and not spare much face to the person he is stepping on with his words that comes out like spears and spear everybody else (as far as I watched him until now), BUT......

AIN'T THAT FUN!!!!!!????!!!!!!

COOL WEY!!!!!!!


If only he knows english (if you don't know, this is a korean guy) and that I can find him then MAN... World War 3 of the MOUTH will be so way cool! To get the extreme frustration and anger on top of my head trying to make no sense with a person who can really chicken butt and spear away, and sometimes can get so damn cruel and annoying and irritating in actions also but yet so funny and cute in another way... That goat smile.. (senyum kambing in Malaysian language.. known as smurk!)

UNFORTUNATELY, these kind of people don't really exist around me, because somehow they just lack some kind of elements even if they are obnoxious to let me feel it is worth the time to even argue something of no sense or of sense..

Anyway, YA! If someday I can find him and talk and argue the crap together, that's adventure! ADVENTURE AND FUUUUNNNN!!!!

Btw, this is the person...

Below...

ish...

Can scroll down a bit?

You know how to use your mouse?

Just keep it pressed and down on the arrow...

Ish ish ish...

Down..

Down..

Down somemore la...

AISEHLEHMAN...

Lu ni buat apa sekarang?

A bit more la..

Just a bit more..

A wee bit more k?

Marah apa marah now?

Scold wat scold?

Patient a bit la..

coming dy...

Coming soon...

TADA!


Got tagged by Angeline.. but dono when .. LOL

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
Wanna kiss my eyes?
they blink!
LOL!
FOREHEAD!
I'm still baby young...

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
Classes starting today.. AISEHLEHMAN...
Bored and eager to watch more downloaded shows..

3. Who was the last person/people you took photo with?
I hate taking photos...
Let me see...
The girls working with me in UTAR Welcoming Concert 2009!
Lovey lovey dovey dovey..

4. Would you considered yourself spoilt?
NO!
Maybe a bit..
Okay..
Quite..
Now let's not go too far k? ^^

5. Will you ever donate blood?
I'll die!!!!
Nah..
Am not allowed to for reasons that I cannot tell..
Or I will have to kill you..

6. Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
Hmm...
I'm not good with people of the opposite sex..
Not lesbian you dummy..
But yea...
I do/did have.. ^^
Figuring that out heh?
MUAHAHA!

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
Nah...
Nobody needs to die..
Wait..
Yes!
MYSELF! I wanna go to heaven!
Wait..
Nah...
Don't have...

8. What does your last text message say?
'O.. ;) Nothing to say don need to say anything de.. can save money.. =D'
I make people silent..
Sometimes..

9. What are you thinking right now?
Let me see..
I can't really be thinking of anything as I am now busy answering ques..
And I don't really have much to think...
So nothing ..
BUAH HA HA HA!

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
Ah duh... Of course I do...
But it won't come true..
At least not as yet..
Or will it?
AISEHLEHMAN...

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
Hmm..
11pm?
12pm?
1am?
don't remember..

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
I ain't wearing any tee..
Nope..
Now, don't go that way kay?
I'm in my pyjamas.. ^^

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
Yes...
Yes...
Yes...
Yes...
Yesh...
Ish...

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
Not a reply?

NONE!
I'm not so popular..
Oh..
Wait..
Got!
Ya fu! ^^

TEN lucky person to do this quiz
1. U
2. U
3. U
4. U
5. U
6. U
7. U
8. U
9. U
10. U

15. Who is number 2 having a relationship with?
Who are you having a relationship with?
Oh come on...
You can tell me..
Hehehe...
Mm hm..
Mm hmm...
Okiez..
Secret..
No problem...
^^

16. Is no. 3 male or female?
I'm sure U know your gender right?

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, will it be good?
Let me see..
Scientifically..
I don't think you can separate yourself from yourself..
So you're already together..
Good for you! MUAHAHA!

18. What is no.1 studying about?
Er..
Who are you?
What are you studying?

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?
When was the last time I chatted with you?
Sorry if I didn't..
Text me so that I can chat with you..
LOL!

20. Is no.4 single?
SO?
Single and available?
Or single but unavailable?
Or totally unavailable?

21. Say something about no.2
Ask me personally, I will tell you.. ^^

22. What do you think about no.2 and no.6 being together?
Please refer to no.17 for the answer.. ^^

23. Describe no.9
Please refer to no.21 for the answer.. ^^

24. Do you like 8?
If you're my friend, of course I like you!
If not..
why are u my friend??
^^

THE END OF A TAGFUL OF MINDLESS ANSWERS>>>

4.17.2009

My brain, My illustration

This is how I imagine my brain: Those thingys working in my brain are called brain workers, and I have come to the conclusion that they are not working!! Cause I feel pretty stupid and lazy even when exams are near, and the only thing the workers want are entertainment! Shopping, shows, music, sing, play...

You see, I can't whip my brain workers, cause that means I will hurt my own head, which is going to be particularly stupid of me, and if I go ahead and grant entertainment, then that's the end of my brain.. No more serious work, my brain won't be functioning. How? Tell me how?

Can't fire them, cause they are on lifetime contract, and if I get rid of them, I'll be getting rid of my own brain, then how will I live? No more brain, die la... And each time I force my brain workers to work serious stuff, they always make a call to President Sleep for rescue and when he comes by, my brain factory will shut down. Then no more work, no productivity. Tell me, how to function?

Even if I can fire the and change the wrokers for those that are on for serious stuff and are hardworking, to find another bunch of good workers take a long time, even though I am trying my best to find them in the shortest time possible. And once I got them, after sometime, they retire. Those good workers get old really fast. What is this? How?

Oh boy... Help me... This is my note to my brain workers:

Dear brain workers,

WILL YOU WAKE UP AND START WORKING!??! The whole world (my whole life) is depending on you (my brain and the working slaves).. Wake up liao!! Start working... Productivity is way too low, and we are really short of time. WAKE UP!!

THE END

* The above is just an illustration. Please do not take it as a biology lesson. Thank you.

3.29.2009

New car

Dad got a new car, called Proton Saga, silver in color.

Haha... still trying to get used to driving that car because it gives a lot of pressure since it is new. Haha...

Bla bla bla.. Nothing to add liao.. hehe...

飞轮海想入非非演唱会

Aha! Can't believe that I actually went. Haha...

I actually ended up there by chance. My cousin who works at the adv agency has some VIP tickets to go for the concert, but she called to say that she did not want to go, so she asked me if I would like to go instead, and give me for free after all.

Well, here are some things that went through my mind after I heard what she said.
1. I have nothing to do tonight, and I'm supposed to off my lights during the earth hour thing.
2. I would like to do my work, but I need a break.
3. This is a concert, and I have never been to one actually.
4. Well, it's free, why shouldn't I?
5. How often will a VIP ticket come along my way eh?
6. Fahrenheit is not an unknown group, it should have an atmosphere bah..
7. It's expensive to buy, and now that it is paid for, I might as well just go la....
8. GO!

Haha.. In a few seconds, I went like 'ok ok... go go.. give me la...thank you.. thank you..'

Around 7.30pm, I was there, and man.. there's a One FM van there giving out stuff, and there was a mobile greenbox karaoke thing. Haha... Very noisy, but around 8pm I went in. According to Malaysian time, it starts around 8.30pm, although it was written 8.00pm. Haha... anyway, the show started with the guest performance by some female singer whom I do not know who she is at all. They off the lights for on minute to support the Earth Hour thing. People 'booed', and I felt like throwing my shoes at them.

Well, I won't be able to say and tell everything about the event, but if you ask me to rate from 1 as the lowest to 10 as the highest... Hm... as a nice person, I would give around.... 6 bah! cause they sang a lot of other people's songs, which I thought was not such a good idea, because it was their concert, and singing people's songs? haha.. anyway, since they added in their talents, that pulled it up a little bit. And the stage deco ain't so nice, and people were standing and we could not see the beginning of the whole thing because we were on chairs (security did a good job in getting them to sit down..), so that killed a little. Haha.. but overall, ok bah.. ^^ Neutral stand, not a huge fan. ^^

So, it blasted my ears for almost 3 hours, and I left with my ears going 'wing wing wong wong'.. Lol.. very tired, but okie la.. haha... had some laugh about the whole thing.. but overall, can give a slight thumbs up.. ^^

That's all la... ^^ read the newspaper la..

3.25.2009

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Haha.. these are some of the pics we took the other day out.. ^^ Nothing to show, but nice pics.. Haha... almost all the same.. lol...








3.24.2009

Giler aka Crazy (in a good way)

Yo...

23rd of March, one of my crazy days..

Let's see.. I went to times square early and went to get myself some stuff.. Argh! Heartbroken.. Saw a lot of stuff I really loved and wanted to buy, but ended up I just window shopped, literally window shopped those things that I loved, and went on, with my heart crying tears , saying..
' Please.. Give it to me.. For free.. That dress, that shirt, that shorts, that accessory.. Sobs..'

Anyway, had to let it go, cause I had to meet up with my friend at the main entrance to get to Sungei Wang for karaoke.. Hehe.. took our McDonalds, and talked about a lot of stuff, and I listened to a lot of what my friend was saying and talking about.. Hm... Now I know you better dy.. ^^ Good! ^^ And then we went 6th floor for our karaoke at Kotak Hijau aka Greenbox.. some screamed their voices away, some sang their voices away.. haha... I didn't scream, for screaming ain't something I did, until later.. haha.. we'll get into that later.. ^^ So, we spent about 2pm-5pm at the room, and hm... did not get enough. Some of them had some vouchers for an extra of half an hour, so we went out to the green capsule. ^^

Green capsule = a gigantic capsul which is a room that is totally transparent and that everybody can see you from outside. Thick faced enough can go there and sing and dance and do everything that you do in the room.

Yeap.. but I think our faces were a bit thinner.. haha.. so no jumping.. but not enough space to jump also la.. Hahaha... ^^ unless u wanna hit the capsule ceiling, go ahead. ^^

Went to eat some tako with one of them while waiting for the other capsule to clear.. conclusion of tako, worst than the ones in Pasar Malam aka Night market. Haha.. So eat at night market better, cause cheaper and nicer. At least it won't fall apart the moment you hold it up. Lol...

After karaoke and tako, went for 大头贴 aka big head sticker aka sticker photos. Hahah.. it is different from the one in Times Square, so I did not know what was going to happen until it finally began. Like war lar.. Haha...

' Wa.. start dy start dy... wa.. faster faster... wa... don't block my face, don't block.. wa... don't change place, no time no time... wa.. tat one tat one.. no tat one.. yea.. no no.. arh..... wa.. wa.. wa.. '

haha... all came out sweating, as if we went for a sauna session. Lol.. never heard me scream like mad and act like tat, maybe we should have taped it up.. lol.. but.. fun fun fun.. truly fun.. each of us got one pic.. Hehe...

then go makan.. yea.. Kim Gary we went.. and I think we got addicted to talking, and we were very loud, and I think we disturbed all the other diners.. Official apologies...haha.. bising lar.. really bising.. hahah... but tat should be the way.. good for us.. hahah... ^^

around 9.30pm, we all went back home... but I had to wait for my dad, so I stayed outside Maybank.. and hmm.. if u have been to Barcelona, they have these people who will act like statues and stay there for hours and hours.. well.. we have one here in Malaysia.. haha.. and he is the only one. Admire these people, can stay still for so long.. I will faint if I were him.. Haha.. very fun.. Haha.... ^^

Overall, it was a nice day out with these group of mates and friends. ^^ great fun..

thanks peeps.. ^^

3.20.2009

20th Mar 2009

It's my birthday, and I am finally 20 years old. A big 2 in front of my age now.

Thanks to Jonnie, my beloved friend, who supported me throughout everything.. Hehe.. and thanks for that very interesting gift.. Haha... It's so cute, and thanks for that very thoughtful note you wrote there.

For sure I will not thank people who have spoil my day today because of some silly stuff. But thanks for this special someone who spent the morning with me in the lab and chatted with me, and made me feel a lot better. Good to be able to chat funny stuff together and good to be able to talk about things I don't really talk about outside. Haha.. thanks for letting me pour my feelings. You know who you are... ^^ Thanks for listening to me. This is one of the best gift for today, a listening ear, or more like ' all the listening ears...' Those who are not, don't perasan k?

And thanks to all of you who made me laughed today, because I really loved laughing and enjoying the day despite of some issues, but thank you all. Shall I name? Nah... Hahaha... in case they 'paiseh'.. But thank you.. Thanks for looking for me for the presentation today and shouting behind ' We want Jean!'.. yeap, I'm yours... Hahaha.... And thanks for the birthday song you peeps sang for me.. I'm very touched.

Despite of bad issues which I decided to let it go already, I am still happy with those of you who made my day for me. Love ya'll lots..

Smiles...

Thanks again!!

* And thanks to those who sent me the SMSes to wish me.. Thank you all!

end of Jean's thanking note.. ^^

3.15.2009

Little Korea - Little 한국

After so long, I finally went to Little Korea in Malaysia.

Well, I basically went there to try out the food there and see how much I like it. Hmm... Let's say that I not only enjoyed it, I actually want to go back for more. Lol..

It's actually nice. Some of my friends said that they still cannot get use to eating Korean food, but I actually enjoyed most of it. Specially all the Kimchi which were placed in front of me. Hehe... It's like heaven when they came. But one thing for sure that they have a very strong smell when it enters the mouth, and it is quite difficult to savour it in the beginning, but slowly, it became really delightful. Love it..

Here's just some pics to show you what my dad and I had.

Forgive me for the blur pics. Handphone cam resolution not that high.. ^^


The complete pic of what we had...

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It's all Chilli....
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Kimchi Jun Gol
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I ordered Kimchi Jun Gol, basically Kimchi stew and rice, with meat inside the stew. The stew tasted amazing, so amazing until I actually forgot about the vege. Haha.. Mixing it with the rice is really delicious. Nyam nyam.. Hehe.. But I have one problem at the restaurant - Chopsticks, or more like Chopsteels. Haha... They are not the wooden or plastic chopstics I usually use at home, but more like flat pieces of steel that narrow down at the end, and the fact that I am already not good in using normal round long chopsticks, makes it worst that now I have to use those that are flat. haha.. so I ended up using the spoon in everything. ^^
The boss there was nice also, and gave me a can of Coke for free and also my dad another cup of tea for free. Other than eating, what else did I do there? I walked around and peep in to many shops, and almost everything inside is written in Korean. yeap.. don't understand, except for those that are directly translated from either mandarin or english, then I understand. ^^ To hear them speak in Korean, I felt like an alien. Haha.. would like to learn more now, so to at least be able to understand part of it, and make my own assumptions of what are they saying, if I don't understand everything. Haha..

I bought some kimchi from the store, and also some snacks to fill my stomach at night while watching some shows. Then.. for fun, I bought myself a newspaper which is written completely in Korean. Haha.... no idea why I bought it, and it wasn't cheap. Haha... RM6 for one newspaper. Lol... I better make sure when I read it I understand what is written inside it. Hahah... By the time I get to understand, it is probably a year ago's news. Haha...

Will be going back there for the food again, and maybe check out the souvenior store there. wonder what they sell there.. haha.. did not manage to go in and take a look. will go the next time.

Argh.. miss the food.. ^^