12.25.2009

First Christmas Together

24th December 2009.
It was our first Christmas together.
I did not know what to expect because I have never spent Christmas this way before.
But our celebration together was fun and at the same time romantic.
We spent Christmas together at 2 places, 1U and also The Curve.
We thought of watching movie at 1U, however because of delays in the parking, we kinda missed the slot for movie in 1U. Haha... But we managed to catch the 'Avatar' at The Curve during the last minute. But we managed to take a nice walk around the mall, and bought ourselves one shirt each. Not couple shirts though. ^ ^ The decorations for Christmas in 1U was pretty, and it was almost fairytale. I really enjoyed the pretty decorations. We took something light at Otak-otak Place before walking around the for a little more and leaving for The Curve for our Christmas dinner. The shop was special because it actually has a lot of memorable elements such as game cards and also decorations which we can relate back to our young times. I enjoyed spending the time with him walking and looking around and eating simple things. However, it kinda hurts me that he was not really feeling well and his legs were hurting, and yet he spent Christmas with me and gave me a very happy time on Christmas Eve.

After 1U, we went to The Curve after that for our Christmas dinner. We went to 'The Apartment' for dinner where Ken made a reservation there for both of us. The atmosphere there was really nice, though it was quite crowded. People were filling up The Street and the Christmas feel was really nice there. We sat outdoors, thus we were able to feel the Christmas feel outside. We sat facing one another with the candle light in between. We had Turkey creaser salad with crispy polenta for our appetizer, Chicken cordon blue with Christmas stuffing for our main dish and Sponge fingers with espresso tiramisu and strawberries for our dessert. Sharing one set of dinner together with him, somehow I feel it was really nice. The portion was big also, and we were thankful for not ordering 2 sets, else we would not be able to finish. Eating with candlelight, and the Christmas lights and Christmas songs around us, I felt that it was really magical, though it was slightly noisy. ^^ We went for a movie after that, and since it was a last minute plan, we left both our jackets in the car, and lo and behold, we were both cold in the cinema. Haha.. Ken gave me his bag to help keep me warm, but his hands ended up cold. The only thing I could do then was to keep his hands warm for him within my palms. How I wished that helped. Haha... By the time the movie ended, it was time for the countdown. We decided to not go down because the people were frantically spraying snow sprays and I kinda do not want to become a huge ball of foam walking around. Haha.. So we watched from above and waited for Christmas to come. When it finally came, we wished one another Merry Christmas and I don't even know how to describe how I felt then. But I felt warm in my heart that we waited for Christmas to come for the first time together.

We went back to our car after that, and to my surprise, he prepared me a Christmas present. It was a cute little pouch bag with a santa clause on it, and there was a small box of chocolates and also a bottle of 相思豆 which he picked one by one and collected them inside the bottle. I was really touched, and at the same time guilty, because I did not prepare him anything. And he gave me a rose, the first rose in my whole life, to me in the morning. I was already thrilled to receive the rose, though I know I did not really show, but when I got the present, I was about to burst into tears. He was so thoughtful and romantic, and all these while I did not expect and did not ask for one, because I was already happy enough that he took good care of me.

This was the best Christmas ever spent. And I am glad that he also spent Christmas lunch with me and my family and they went along well, and my parents were ok with him. Buffet was good I guess, since everybody was busy running about for food. ^^ Nice eating session.

I guess, I am just happy and blessed to have him with me this time. I hope we can spend the next Christmas together again. The warmth of the season is still in my heart, and I hope that this warmth will stay even through the rest of the year and the new year to come.

*Merry Christmas to all... May life be filled with joy and glad tidings, and may love fill every corner of your homes and heart *

12.20.2009

快樂與不快樂

假期了,多了很多時間,多了很多想事情的時間。
回想整個學期,發生了很多事情。
有快樂的,也有不快樂的。
不快樂的事情,到今天,都還是那個樣子。
沒有變得更好,反而可能變得更糟。
這些事情,到今天,都讓我覺得很難受。
充滿了失望,背叛。
但是答應了自己,要忘了它。
我不想爲了這些事情而被困擾。
忘了,不管了,可能會更開心一些。
快樂的事情,現在因爲它,也更幸福,更快樂。
找到了能夠愛自己的人,而自己也能愛的人,我已經很幸福了。
在不快樂的時候,回想起和他快樂的時光,嘴角就會浮現微微的笑容。
希望能夠永遠擁有這快樂,這幸福, 與他分享快樂與悲傷的事情。
我們能否永遠,還是個問號。
但是,無論如何,我會好好珍惜在一起的時間,
克服所有能克服的,
不放棄無法克服的,
選擇堅強地面對,
選擇為他犧牲付出。

家裏裝修著,
就快擁有一閒更美麗的房間,
新的家具,
擁有更好的讀書環境。
雖然現在真的被裝修的過程吵得有些人受不了,
但還真的好期待自己的房間會是怎樣的。

現在的我,
只希望自己能夠一直開心,
希望自己能好好休息,
好好調整自己的身體,
不想一直地那麽累,
想要好好享受一下生活。

快樂與不快樂
無論如何
都是一種經驗
但是
希望
快樂能夠比不快樂多

12.17.2009

RIP

RIP - Renovation In Progress

Well, it is seriously about to make me RIP as in rest in peace.

Every morning 'zzeeennggg.... zzzeeennnggg... zzzeeeenngggg....' and 'dop! dop! dop!', wow.... Though it is renovation for my own house, I still cannot take it. 9am in the morning, with no warning, the drilling starts and it serves as an early alarm clock for me, Pretty unfortunately, I am on a holiday, so this alarm clock's functions are not excatly helpful... T T

Oh well, hopefully they can end before Christmas, else I would be celebrating Christmas as a disorientated panda bear. We've gotten new tiles for the rooms, getting a new cupboard and new shelf for my room, getting new showers for the bathroom, and new tiles for the bathroom too.. So many new things.. And it's time for me to get some new clothes and maybe a pair of new shoes?

Oh well..... Here's comes the drilling...

'ZZZEEEEENNNNGGGG!!!!!!'

12.12.2009

Welcome, Holiday

The hols are back.

Time seems to be passing by faster than imagined, another year is about to come to an end, and another semester is over yet again. 

This holiday, I believe everybody are hoping for a good rest and break from everything. Furthermore, it is a Christmas holiday, who wouldn't want to throw everything behind and spend a good time shopping and enjoying the lovely moments and atmosphere of a beautiful Christmas season? 

I wish for the same things too. I really hope that this time round, I really get to rest. After a whole year, at least, for this time, I want to get a good rest and really sit down and clear my mind from everything. However, I know it is almost impossible to do so. No matter how, I just want to enjoy Christmas season with my family and him. I do not want to run the same routine of having to worry about so many things, because it is time for me to get some rest. I have miles and miles before me, and I want to be refreshed and rejuvenated before I continue running. 

The house is about to undergo renovation. Toilet is going to have new 'clothes' and new 'accessories', and my room will also have new 'clothes' and new 'accessories'. ^^ Going to be a big mess starting from next week. Have to move everything out of the room and move everything back in again after that. Wow... Such a hassle, but looking forward to have a new look for the bathroom and also the room. ^^ 

Christmas day is going to be interesting I guess. ^^ Somebody's gonna join the family for lunch, buffet... ^^ I wonder what is going to happen, but definitely will look forward to it. ^^ Hopefully mummy and daddy won't scare this person away, because they are very prone to do so when they are over nervous. Especially mummy. ^^ Hehe... I will be hoping for the best. 

Oh well.. ^^ Don't know what else to say for now. Barbie Doll just hopes for a better life and happy endings all the time. ^^ For now, I found one. There will be more happy endings to come.

Hopefully exams also happy endings... >.< Let's not worry about that first eh?

Happy Holidays! and a Merry Christmas!!

12.07.2009

Just a thought... Just a thought... Just a thought... Just a thought...

Disclaimer:

This is just a thought, with no other meaning.

I repeat again. This is just a thought, with no other meaning. Just a thought, with no other meaning.

Just a thought, with no other meaning.  Haha...

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Nowadays, people are dying young, and I really wonder how life is really after life. Obviously I won't know, cause I am still here alive. Yet, I always have the thought, that those young people never had a chance to go through so many things that they have always longed for and yearned to go through. Not anymore another birthday, not anymore looking forward for a graduation, not anymore to tie the knot with the person they love, not anymore to spend those days looking after their little children, growing up and resembling them.

Every single funeral, full of somberness, heartache of losing someone they love.

Thus, I planned a simple plan for my funeral, JUST IN CASE, I don't get past those later times. But I bet I will be going through those later times alive.

No matter how, this is just a thought. Just a thought. ^^

Lately, I fell in love with a song named Nothing Better by Brown Eyed Soul. Though I don't know the meaning of the song, but I definitely love the melody. I loved it so much that it brought tears to my eyes each time I listen to it. I like the softness of the song. I would love it that this song will be played on funeral rather than any Amazing Grace. But the song may still be sang, no problem. ^^

And I would like the hall where my casket lies be filled with roses of white and red, making it almost like a garden for me. Like I'm lying on a bed of roses. It brings meaning, because roses have petals and thorns, meaning good and bad. Lying within that hall full of roses, keeps a reminder that I have went through thick and thin, good and bad times. Every petal and every thorn symbolizes a memory to me, thus I want to lie surrounded by them, though I cannot see them any longer nor remember them any longer.

I have always loved white color, therefore I would like to be in a white simple dress when I go. At least, during my last, I want to still look my best, be dressed in my best. ^^

However, everything written there, are just for thought. Just for a thought. I have repeated like umptin times. ^^ Yet, if I can change all those rough ideas for my wedding way way way years later, it would look great too, don't you think so?


Well, I don't control the timing of life, but I will try to live my best, though it is really difficult to do so.

Carpe Diem. 

12.06.2009

Rain

It's raining again.

Listen to the raindrops beating upon the rooftops, see the people on the streets running to get shelter across the streets, see the umbrellas of different colors open up like flowers blooming on fields of tar, look at the raindrops falling like drops of dew on leaves of trees, rain, though beautiful, it is still cold and lonely.

In every sad scene within any shows or music videos, rain is almost a must to create the somber atmosphere. They let the rain soak them wet and let their tears flow and the rain washes them away. Maybe that is why. Maybe that is the conditioning factor. Maybe that is why when the rain comes, loneliness gets a hold of me.

That's why when it rains, I often wishes that I am asleep, because I do not like the feeling, and I do not want to entertain it at all. But when I can't, I know that I will just have to wait for the rain to be over and hopefully the rays of the sun that comes after it will be able to brighten me up.

Rain, it is always amazing how you can bring about such feelings and emotions.

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When the sun is shining

I will stand right behind you
I will walk with you
When it starts to drizzle
I will come nearer to you
Ready to shelter you
When the rain pours
I will be right beside you
With an umbrella to shelter you
Until the sun shines again
In every season
I will be around for you
To shelter you
To comfort you

12.01.2009

Whoosh~

Whoosh~ Whoosh~ Whoosh~

Finally... OOO... Finally...

All assignments for this semester is over! OH YEA~

Lol.. Did our demonstrative speech presentation today, and we had a great time preparing our breakfast in class. Lol... Let's see...
-Kimberly did a banana salad with orange juice as dressing... Nyam nyam...
-Wei Shen did oatmeal porridge... wu... It actually tasted fantabulous!
-Wei Boon cooked a New Leftover Breakfast, with vege, soup and rice and fish.. I LUP IT!
-I made P-A-R-F-A-I-T.. With yogurt, fruits and cereals.. IF you wanna try, let me know... Heheh... Maybe we can make Parfaits... With the right ratios that is.. LOL..

Well, unbelievamazingly, our whole breakfast set was DELICIOUS! Haha... I actually enjoyed it a lot... Oo lala.. haha... It just tasted GREAT! Made me super happy today... ^^

And our other assignment was also well.. Thanks to Ah Boon, Kim, Hsing and Heman. You guys did really great... ^^ Do take all the credits! You deserve it, all of it!

Quite a happy day today. Since almost everything in this semester is done, left only one paper for the semester finals. But I guess...There's nothing much I can do except to read. T.T

Oh well.. a bit over happy and in ecstasy (not the pills... I mean my feeling).. Just for today friends. After this I will be back to normal.. The serious and less crazy Jean. DON GO 'YA RIGHT.....'... haha...

Well.. Better get ready for meeting now.. Lol...

Sign off loo...

Happy day today... At least I'm happy for today. ^^